Mirror mirror

How far will I go?

Despite the foundation, I am falling

Sweet reflection

Will you save a place for me?

Where am I heading?

Could you grant me a haven?

For what?

I am punished, could I ever repent?

Mother Nature, I'm wide open

Waiting for you to move me

Don't keep it from me

This is a free fall

I never seem to understand

The time, the place and who I am

Define a way to stay alive

It's like I'm living a lie

Father time, every time I stop and feel

You're there to tell me I'm already late

Don't keep it from me

This is a free fall

I never seem to understand

The time, the place and who I am

It's like I'm living a lie

I never seem to understand

The time, the place and who I am

Define a way to stay alive

It's like I'm living a lie

Slow and painful

 Im hitting that wall again

I live for her, but Im a zombie 

What happened to the rest of my thoughts?

To think, I had Metallica make a song, hell practically an album for me, yet I cannot contact them. I helped shape a couple of the awesomest cartoon shows, and same thing

I made an ass out of myself, because of life

There never has been light, just the void

The void

The void

Nothing but the void

Yet I linger, and the more Im forced to do what I don't want to, to survive, the deeper my hole

Therapy is the last straw 

Bleeding Me

 I cut myself open and pour it on the floor.

June was the Queen, am I to walk those steps and turn into a crow?

Talk to my guide tomorrow 

Let no sins follow

Dunno

 Katja 2019 or so

June 2013 meth OD

Tina 2014 Drunk, threw up in her sleep

How many others?

Been with the same girl since 2012. Still, remorse is for the dead. June was a hard one. Real hard.

I put Azrael in his box around 2007. In a few days I'm going searching for the key. I'm letting him out. I'm becoming whole. 

It was find love or win the lottery, right? Well I found love, a compatible love, a settled love. Still better than I've had, but of course, not enough.

No, the scars within need the healing that has to be and only Azrael can do that. I've been running long enough 

Will I make it? Dunno

Cyclic cycles.

Found this on FB. I remember writing it during my time on NT. Man, the things that were happening there, at that time. Who knew that 2006 could be revisited in these times.

And Katja died. Cancer. We never really got on after her visit here, but I had a place for her.

Azrael

Angry again. Still waiting, yearning for release. Still learning, so there is that too. You kept me here, whispered a promise in my ear.

Trying hard to keep an open mind, but the more I linger, the more the hate builds up. I think of you and try to release, let the multiverse sort it out. You never leave me, but your silence is exasperating. It's been a long time since I have reached out to you, and I feel like a jerk for only envoking your name when I am desperate. But who else have I to turn to? He who  hath no name is useless and the task falls to you. The watcher.

I try to share with others and the empty mindedness is maddening. You know what I am trying to achieve. Make of it then. Do SOMETHING.

But no, you just sit and watch. Like you were made to. Shouldn't be so perfect in execution.

Endless days, passing by so quickly now. Time speeding up, yet going by so agonizingly slow.

Love you and wish you well. Hope the project is keeping you entertained and the billion year clock ticks away

Interests

Ahoy hoy.

Long time no talkie. I re-read my blog....exhausting work I know. Actually I didn't remember I had this till I came across a blog I really liked by one of my favorite artists.

Gave me an inspiration to post. Who knows, maybe he'll stop by to see what kind of weirdo's would be stalking him.

Haha I would.

Anyways, not to scare him away, I am sure he is a pleasant person, fantastic artist there is no doubt and I encourage anyone who reads this to check it out. Trout-a-verse

Besides spending a small fortune on eBay for some of Mr. Kieth's signed and unsigned artwork (of which I am still collecting and would like some rare pieces if possible hint hint :P) I have currently changed careers and gone into the mechanical side of things. Currently in a apprenticeship program for Heavy Duty Mechanic.

The goal is to build a small garage and retire in BC, doing tunes and engine builds with next years technology. I am not good on the engineering side of things, but as technology advances my expertise in computer related sciences have me wanting to combine the two. A lot comes from owning a tuneable sports car as well :)

Alas, my baby is in a sea-can for the season. At least now I have a shop to pull her into and do some work on it.

Oh, I almost forgot, I purchased a new house in the city and will be residing there with my GF. We've been together for about a year now, things are progressing in a normal manner. Meaning, she puts up with me and I am not bored. Only thing is that she is a planner.....haha and you can guess how that goes for me. But its all working and healthy and I am much happier than I have been. 

Looking forward to moving into an owned property for the first time. A good starter home and should have nice equity for when I am ready to build my dream home.

So thats all for now. I suppose I will post pics and stuff when I have some time. Only have pics from the summer of the car and stuff. I plan on doing a nice little showroom in the new house of my comics and collections, will post them here.